So let's make things physical

All I dream of lately is how to get you underneath me

I am so into this song right now, it's ridiculous. I need to stop listening to sexy music. IT'S JUST FRUSTRATING.

Lethargy

I have been completely lazy this week. After school, I've just gotten home and sat on my couch. No planning, no grading, no getting shit done. I FEEL SO TIRED. I have so much to do. Ugh. Fuck rainstorms. Fuck Halloween. Fuck doing anything but sleeping. I am so tired.

Some nights

Just spent all day watch Don't Trust the B-- in Apt 23 (which is hilarious; James van der Beek as himself is a work of art). Then fell asleep on my couch. That's what happens when you go to jazz clubs 'til 3 am then have to get up at 8:30 to coach a soccer game. Today is just one of those days where you eat a lot of food and listen to Kate Nash and evaluate how being alone/lonely makes you a stronger person.

Secret confessions

#1: I am seriously thinking about moving to Mexico City next year with my friend Evelyn.

#2: I would seriously consider staying in Kansas City another year to loop with my students (a.k.a. teach them for another year).

#3: I am still crushin' on an old crush from college and really want to move back to Oakland.

#4: Or maybe I should just run away to Italy and live a charming, romantic, most-likely-impossible European existence.

You know, focused and ambitious. Whatever.

It's a new art form: showing people how little we care

We're so happy even when we're smiling out of fear
Let's go down to the tennis court and talk it out like yeah

Um, where did September go? When did I discover that I absolutely love 3rd graders? How did I get here? And why are you in my apartment?

Things I Have to Remind Myself Constantly

• buying new clothes might make you happy but it doesn’t make you less lonely
• it’s okay to do things by yourself
• it’s okay to be sad
• it’s okay to see a movie alone and cry (at the movie, not because you are alone)
• (although it would be okay to cry because you are alone too)

Day at a time, I suppose

Can we all just take a second and remember how fucking amazing Omar from The Wire is? He is the sickest at laying the smack down. Also, his tie looks hella dope.