We're gonna make it to the beach on time

How do people live in places besides California? I can't even comprehend.

If you close your eyes does it almost feel like nothing changed at all?

Coming back home is never quite the same once your friends have moved away from their parents' houses down the street to their own grown-up houses. I still come back to town like I did in college, staying in my old bedroom. But everyone else is gone and they don't have a winter break anymore.

Such a California girl

The only church I need is running along the beach on Sunday morning, then hearing this song on the radio. Fucking spiritual.

I'm dreaming of a sunny, 75˚ Christmas

So it's almost time for winter break, somehow. This semester has been amazing and I think I am more committed to becoming a better teacher than I was this time last year. And I love these amazing little beans and their beautiful, bright faces. But at the same time, I AM SO READY FOR A BREAK, SOME OF THESE KIDS AND THEIR SHIT, I SWEAR.

Also, I am not digging the cold weather. I hate driving with ice on the roads. Like, Missouri, can you get your shit together and salt the roads? Jesus fucking christ.

So let's make things physical

All I dream of lately is how to get you underneath me

I am so into this song right now, it's ridiculous. I need to stop listening to sexy music. IT'S JUST FRUSTRATING.

Lethargy

I have been completely lazy this week. After school, I've just gotten home and sat on my couch. No planning, no grading, no getting shit done. I FEEL SO TIRED. I have so much to do. Ugh. Fuck rainstorms. Fuck Halloween. Fuck doing anything but sleeping. I am so tired.

Some nights

Just spent all day watch Don't Trust the B-- in Apt 23 (which is hilarious; James van der Beek as himself is a work of art). Then fell asleep on my couch. That's what happens when you go to jazz clubs 'til 3 am then have to get up at 8:30 to coach a soccer game. Today is just one of those days where you eat a lot of food and listen to Kate Nash and evaluate how being alone/lonely makes you a stronger person.